If a white person was So Astonished and Shocked that a black person accomplished something almost as good as a white person would, they’d be called racist. But black people can literally treat themselves and their children that way and it’s empowerment.

A white person could graduate high school with 90s and 100s in every class and no one cares. They get a high five and a $20 TGI Fridays gift card. A black person can graduate high school with 60s in every class and they’re the second coming of God.

Everyone outside the school and the goddamn country needs to know about this excellent black person who managed to actually get 60s and pass! Despite being black! So inspirational! It’s so smart for a black person! If a black person could do it, what’s your excuse?

But I’m the problem for absolutely hating that. I’m an asshole for being conveniently missing during graduation. I’m racist for wanting equality. Why can’t I get a high five and a gift card? Why can’t I just graduate and have nobody care like the normal people?

It’s not just graduating, but literally everything. Having a hobby. Using a phone. Literally just existing as a black person is sooooo inspirational. A white person can draw hyper realistic portraits, but a black person’s crude scribbling is broadcast to the world as talent. A black person being interested in a hobby is so inspirational they need to be interviewed and broadcast to everyone, but a white person actually doing the hobby doesn’t matter. They’re normal. But if I call this out, I’m the problem. I have internalized racism. I’m the asshole for quitting all my hobbies.

Then there’s that stupid puzzle piece rainbow infinity sign disorder. Everything anyone with that shit does is solely because of that shit and nothing else. Even using fediverse websites is solely the decision of some stupid disorder. No one could possibly want to get away from the subtle ads and toxicity. It must be a stupid disorder.

Knowing ANYTHING is the result of that stupid disorder making you So Smart, but not knowing something is the result of that stupid disorder making you stupid. A child being tech savvy is not the result of computers being easy enough for a child, it’s the result of a stupid disorder making the child smart. That stupid disorder made someone have a hobby that anyone else would do for fun.

That stupid disorder causes every last thing a human being experiences, according to literally everyone in the world except me. It’s like you all want to be seen as corpses animated by that stupid disorder.

I hate being the only human who actually wants to be a human being. I’m sick of it. I’m tired of changing my name and phone number and still being found by people who only see me as the stupid disorder I never fucking had and a stupid skin color. I wish I was just born white or dead, I’m sick of this society.